I was about to leave a post about my boundless energy about how everything is wrong and how I woke up and need to change it. I read my cousin's blog, and realized she already wrote it. We have this parallel thing....blood relation connection thing.
I have been waiting to act. I have been waiting for someone else to help me. Needing help is fine, I am totally ok with needing help. People can't do things on their own, that's why there are millions of us. And there are millions of us, yet we still feel alone sometimes.
It was nice to think about and I really thought it was going to work. I had been dreaming up plans with the man I love for about a year now and now that isn't happening the way we discussed. It's still possible, maybe someday. Last time my plans went to shit I walked up a mountain by myself without training: a really big steep mountain. It was the best thing I could think of to prove to myself that I could do it. And I did it. And it helped. I have boundless energy sometimes.
This time I will have other challenges.
Girl, there are many parallels. The man thing totally didnt pan out for me the right way either. Accept it and just move on, eventually, you will see why.
ReplyDeleteEverything is wrong is right, but only because these are things needing to be fixed. Once they are fixed, they will be right again. Hang on, kitten, it will get better this month as long as you stay vigilant and just get your work done. I, myself, feel better as I keep working on all that is wrong. Positive action and just DOING it is making it go away. The energy is there for you to sup it and transform it into good.
Call me if you need to. XO!